Childhood Dreams

As a child we all dream about some stupid stuff. Let alone dream , we DO a lot of stupid stuff. But being kids its acceptable because ....well kids are stupid.

Now when i was a kid.... wait...more on that later. First I am going to tell you when my friends were kids, what did they dream of. I am going to keep the identities secret or use fake names of my friends so that no one can sue me after this:)

So in kindergarten my underwear friend (langotia yar) wanted to be a ghost buster ...at that time i didnt even know wat ghost busters meant, but hey! neither did he. The insanity never stopped with him, people say that kids grow smarter wen they r in process of growing up. But sadly none of my frnz grew up i guess. From bng a ghost buster he was hopping his way to even more insane future dreams. One of my friend had a dream of becoming a pan wala ... y d hell is he is in a school den, i alwaz thought. FYI he is IIT right now.So you see my point is .that Kids are weirdos  i mean cute weirdos...but weirdos none the less

Though all my friends had these aweful next to impossible dreams. I had an even INSANE one. I wanted to be an ACTOR and a WRITER. i have carried this dream with me for last 15 years training myself for it. For a 4 year old i was much ahead of my time. i knew back then that if i cud get a kids commercial i would do it better then anyone n nail it. As the years passed by i did pick a few more insane dreams but these were always with me. I got rejected in 7 auditions ...1 for a movie n 6 for commercial. Someone said i was too young ...some said i was too thin. Well some even said i don't know how to act (I don't agree with this at least). The only audition i have cleared till now is the College Theater auditions and one other audition which i would not like to brag about (so lets be sush about it). My point of writing this blog post is to prove that i was smarter then other kids at my time, I hate kids ...and i'll make it big some day (fingers crossed) :)

CURRENT STATUS OF FRIENDS 

•  Ghost Buster is a Merchant Navy cadet right now.
• The Cowboy is pursuing Physics honors from DU.
• The Pan Wala is in IIT
• My fellow lead actor is sitting home doing nothing.
• Private Detective is sitting on his father's kapda shop.
• And Tin Tin is in U.S.A right now.

Well as far as my dream is concerned ... I am trying...

My Dark, Arrogant, Rude and Selfish ERA was much better then what I AM NOW

ME - PRESENTLY

Yes i admit it... My portrait and trying to be a Mr. Nice Guy for the post one year hasn't paid off well. My grades shot down.... My graph of success has come down from the point that i thought i would never come down from. Its depressing and normally a guy would fall down on his knees and cry his heart out. And I am a normal guy too.... that is exactly what i did. Its not only about the grades ...it is abt the respect i had for myself 2 years ago that i tend to have lost now. I was focused ...I knew what i wanted to ahead in my life. N now am this complaining n irritating and even self annoying idiot.

ME- ONE AND A HALF YEAR AGO


I was a focused guy who knew what he would do. I would have gone out of school and I would have three goals to achieve. 1st- get through NDA for airforce ( that couldnt happen). 2nd- if airforce didnt happen. I would go after Merchant Navy (my mother did not let that happen) and write fictional books (still working on my first book). 3rd- I would be an actor (dont know when that's gonna happen). Being an Engineer was never in my list. All for Dad's happiness i flushed all of the three items above and started to do my best for Engineering. And i did my best in it as well, I cracked AIEEE by a not so bad 28k Rank. With the quota i would have got a much better college and i even got one, NSIT....then started the worst year of my life. i did not get into NSIT....rather after two months i got into Lingaya's University ( ppl who dont know this university, its an average private university in Faridabad). So that was the first biggest fall of my life, From NSIT to LU, metaphorically from HEAVEN to HELL. But it wasnt the last fall. the year 2010-2011 wasnt that good for me. The only good thing happened to me in this time was my college theater and the appreciation i got. Its time to set the my life on track again.


ME- FUTURE


Being the usual non caring, future based, arrogant, rude and ruthless successful jerk i used to be. Coz if dats wat i need to be on top again i'll b very happy to do it. No more Nice Guy for me. I was better the way i was years ago. And am back on Blogger as well...after a year long gap. Lets look up to things and see positively, my old mantra renewed ;). No more depression and whining about stuff, time to b practical and face the reality. Chao...c ya till my next blog post.

TWITTER ...is it addictive?

An obsession has been noticed in the social networking world. After Facebook and My Space comes a social networking website which not only has attracted the aam janta but also many international celebrities...TWITTER. Now apparently no one knows that Twitter was first suggested to Google co. but it fell flat on their table. It was rejected and outlined. After 8 months of the rejection Twitter entered the world of networking websites. In the wee times of its entrance, it was welcomed with a lot of criticism and there was a quite possibility that it would have been shut down soon after. But the little bird flew its way out of the difficult times and then came the time when twitter got attractive. And not only attractive but addictive as well. Many big n small celebrities across the globe had entered the twitter universe. Ashton Kutchor, Tom Hanks, Tom Cruise, Shah Rukh Khan and many others. With unbelievable five n a half million followers, Britney Spears stands the most famous person on Twitter. Retiesh Deshmukh himself had said that twitter is very much addictive. But not only the celebrities but the people who had first rejected and pined down twitter have accepted the fact that Twitter has gone much higher to its expectation with Billions of followers across the globe. But the big question now is that can Twitter get neck to neck with facebook who stands on the second position as compared to Twitter ,which is much behind at fifty. Though Twitter has easily outnumbered Orkut( a Google's own website), can it be that addictive so that it beats facebook? A big question which will soon have an answer to it...

RAAVAN -not that bad

Saw Raavan yesterday night...unfortunately coudnt see it through...missed the ending of the movie...now who said Raavan was the worst movie of this year....i mean tak a highway 2 nowhere if u thnk so!!!! i agree to the point that the 1st half is goin on senselessly n gets a bit boring...but the moment 2nd half starts...it gets really gud...i knw that it isnt DAT gud but surely not worst...it can easily catch 3 out of 5....which is very near 2 b a gud movie...it has most amzing screenplay, backgrounds, acting by Vikram as DEV rocks, Abhishek surely needs acting lessons, n Aishwarya's beauty spks 4 herself in the whole movie, Govinda was the best after Vikram n Nikhil Dwivedi was a great surprise.....all in all Raavan not that bad. Desrvd a mch btr response...:)The person who thnks deep dwn abt cinema wud shurely wont rate it that bad...jst like omar qureshi who rated it 3 n half....i agree wid him. all in all Maniratnam stands where he did after Guru...atleast 4 me...every1 hav 1's own choice..:)

THE NIGHT STAY

Avinash and Vishal had a night stay at my place last night...it was fun beyond all points. we slept at 5 in the morning....while i am writing this they are still sleeping. i have an xclusive pic of vishal sleeping r8 nw. Avi just got up , smiled and went to the lo..abi b neend me he saala. we kept talking about ghosts and haunted places all nyt....trust me its a lot of fun. then we switched on you tube n saw horror clips. in the end me n vishal were scared n decided to switch the topics. we fought, we talked...vishal ki thodi si li...well bht li...all in all it was so mch fun...aur mjhe ab b neend nai a rhe hai....it was loads of fun...could not hav been btr..:)

DEATH.....joy or sorrow

In the dark phase of my life came this poem....and in another dark phase i am writing it out for you...this is the third poem i wrote in my life. it's called....

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"DEATH-joy or sorrow"

If I ever die tomorrow,

It would not come as joy nor sorrow,

Have done what i wanted to,

Difficulties have passed through,

Narrow lane of pain,

Nothing to despair the drain,

The only thing I would miss and cry,

Was the thing in which i was shy,

No quake can hurt me,

No flood can sweep me,

I'll drown in the tunnel of heaven,

Passing the hell's demon,

'I have done no sin' I would say,

But will it save me from being a pray,

Embedded in the land I was born and then died,

Would think just one thing,

What if I die tomorrow,

Will it be a joy...or sorrow

A CHANTING CRY FOR LOVE

This is the first ever poem i wrote in my life.

i guess i had written it way back in my 10th grade. its called- 'A CHANTING CRY FOR LOVE'.

It is a very short poem but i must tell...it comes straight from my heart.

Thousands of them cry,

causing million tears in the eye,

A sleek pain in the heart,

'ORPHANS' is what we chant,

Parents is what they cry for,

Home is what they die for,

Though they are homeless,

But this makes them fearless,

A heart touching story,

Not of shame but glory,

Love your parents is what I say,

coz some of them just pray...

the next time I saw my Parents after writing this poem. i looked into there eyes and caught the love for me.. I will wait for the day I can reflect it back, that will be the day my parents are goin to be proud of me.